Second Chance Addiction, Recovery, & Support

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Remembering... 9 /11 Let’s never forget... The lives that were taken... And the families of those who suffered...

9 years... 9 years being married..!!!!! I HOPE YOU LIKE REAL!! if not don’t read you’ll be disappointed. 1 word to explain . ... Roller coaster ... ... Wait that’s 2 words... it’s known as one deal.. how do I explain 9 years ? ? traveling, ministry, having children, falling behind financially, arguing, worshipping, complaining, praying, working crazy busy jobs, laughing, fighting. A lot of craziness.. BUT. MY WIFE STAYED BY MY SIDE... we had more children, Kept seeking Jesus, loving life, Sickness came, we overcame, lost some friends, gained new friendships, death happened , buried uncles , buried Friends, buried my absolute best friend of 24+ years, losing hope, losing peace,I fell into full depression. .. through this season, MY WIFE STAYED BY MY SIDE. I got promoted, became assistant, Got a pay raise, bought a beautiful home, gaining focus, looking promising , new opportunities, new dreams, Looked great.. MY WIFE STAYED BY MY SIDE. One night I’m laying down and God speaks, of course I listen, we pray, we answer, The call was to move to bakersfield, selling home, feeling ready, feeling afraid, feeling happy, feeling sad, new place, new People, new everything , But knowing nothing. Feeling hopeful, then feeling hopeless , Ya, MY WIFE STILL STAYED BY MY SIDE.... new city, we Adopted a teen, yaaaa Crazy , purchased a new home, made new friends, began a new chapter, amandas Grandma passes, We weren’t ready for it, Disciple of mine hangs himself, I was asked to do his funeral, I’m sad, I’m mad, I’m most definitely confused, There’s more sad days then I can count BUT MY WIFE STAYED BY MY SIDE. we Take over a church, I’m preaching every week, Things are growing, people are being stirred up, Then our church takes the biggest hit , one after another ,,, people start coming against us, There’s some stormy situations, and then 3 children in our church die all under the age of 5 years young. It was unbelievable... the trauma, the pain, Broken down, feeling hurt.. we have no words, we have no expression, all we can do is be available and love. I take it all in, my heart is heavy. I’m loving people with what I have left. trying to be available to the world while giving my family my left overs, My life is torn, My marriage is on the rocks, My emotions are going insane, and through all of this,.... MY WIFE STAYED BY MY SIDE. I wish I can say it got better ,, The devil creeps in, My mind is fatigued, My heart is hardened. I wanted to end it all. I wanted to take my own life. I don’t feel worthy, Feeling shattered, defeated, upside down. I hired a personal counselor , I hired a marriage counselor, It’s getting better, feeling hopeful, maybe I can do this, AND BOOM... my friend of 10 years kills himself, He was a pastor, my same age as me. I’m devastated, Broken, sad, hurt , confused , drained, I can’t lead people, I have nothing to offer, I want to take a break, but really can’t catch a break because I’m so broke. Through all of this MY WIFE STAYED BY MY SIDE. I Fall back into depression, my family can’t help me, My church can’t help me, no matter how many people prayed, how much money I made, or places I traveled I couldn’t get to a place of peace, instead I fell deeper. MY WIFE STAYED BY MY SIDE. Here’s the positive part, I started to realize, I can’t control everything that happens to me. but I can control the way I respond. Then 2020 came .... do I need to explain!?? I believe that this year of Covid19 , and racial tension, and every negative deal you can throw into the mix has caused me to rise up and take a greater stand... my wife has been a supporter of mine since the beginning. It has NEVER been easy, but it’s definitely been worth it. MY WIFE STAYED BY MY SIDE. AND SHE’S BY MY SIDE EVEN NOW AS I WRITE THIS.. without all the bumps and bruises I wouldn’t know what my marriage is made of? I can definitely say I’m blessed, and as crazy difficult life has been to us we’ve still found a way to make it through the other side.. our most recent conversation Was , we can’t just be content with making it by and surviving. We want to be thriving. And for that we will keep fighting and striving. There’s been ups & downs. Smiles & frowns. Thorns & crowns.. but We are still around. OUR GREATEST DAYS ARE AHEAD.. Amanda Gutierrez 9 years is just the beginning.. 09/10/11

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